| Long time no see old friend! |
[Oct. 30th, 2005|11:10 pm] |
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Gosh I havent been on LJ in like 3 months! I became a myspace junky just like the rest of the world. I dont even know who all still uses this. But I just wanted to update just incase people still care. Ive been dating Eric steadly for almost 4 months it will be 4 months in 5 days. I love him with all my heart. Its really a great feeling. We've been through ALOT these past 4 months its not even funny but we've been there for each other. Me and Miller are still friends though we dont see each other much. Hes got a girlfriend now. But theres really not alot going on that I can remember. My Brother is in Pensicola for his schooling. He wasnt doing to good for a while but hes getting better. Ive met some new people, Brett and Manny. They're alot of fun. I went through some rough times but im ok now. I quit ROTC cuz its NOT the same, its really harsh this year and I dont much like the new instructor. But thats pretty much it, just me livin life, and havin fun. |
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| Thank you mommy |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|01:49 pm] |
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Got my tattoo today... It didnt hurt as bad as I thought it would and it only hurt at certain parts. Im proud I didnt chicken out at all and I went first. But I really love it. Its my early birthday present. And I love the guy that did it Marc HE IS SO FUCKING RAD!.. And Hot.
I think Tonya is mad at me :*( |
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| Go Me! |
[Jul. 29th, 2005|12:40 am] |
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Im getting more skilled in my Icon making. Check this one out!... Could be the new computer but no one needs to know that! Im having so much fun with Eric. Im really falling for him! Its so invigorating LoL god I love that kid hes weirder and crazier than me... Hes so great! It'll be a month the first day of school. My longest steady relationship that wasnt long distance. Im really happy. |
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| Sick of it... |
[Jul. 24th, 2005|10:42 am] |
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im bored watching Bubble Boy... Talkin to Eric on the phone. I just got back from Orlando, I had to get away from everything here. Im sick of all this drama. Me and Miller will prolly never have the friendship we had before. Im sick of his weird ways, how he wont date but yet hes SO in love with me. I just dont get it. But oh well, im really happy with Eric. Tomorrow will be 3 weeks strong. Thats the longest for me... I mean I went out with Anthony for a month but there was a breakup inbetween there. Pretty sad that my longest relationship is 3 weeks. But I really like Eric alot, even though everyone else and their brother dont like him. I dont really care cuz all that matters is that I like him. The only other person that does like him is Johnny, so its usually just me and Johnny chillin. But thats ok. Hes not allowed over here anymore. He hates my family, cept for my mom. It pretty much sucks, but I can go over to his house, which I love doing... his family is fucking kik ass. His brothers crack me up like woah, and so does their friend Tanner. So funny, and his mom loves me. Its kool, but it sucks that he cant come over here. His mom wont let him. Pretty much cuz she knows hell get in a fight over here. But oh well. Wow hes dumb! Anyway, Im gonna roll like a fat chick on ex. |
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| woops |
[Jul. 20th, 2005|11:48 pm] |
Holy shitt... alot has happened, im so sick of everything!!! Shitt happened and it ended with Miller punching Eric in the face. I cant believe he did that... Its been CrAzY. And I heard from Tonya and she diesected a dead man... I was like HOLY FUCK! THATS CRAZY!!!!
But today I sepnt the day at Eric's house. I love it there, his family is so CRAZY and fun to be around. Tanner is funny as fuck, Robbie messes with me all the time, Daniel is my second boyfriend, Ashley is like my sister, and his mom loves me. All of them are SSSOOO crazy. We went tubing and Alex threw me off the jetski. After jetski's we watched Harlod and Kumar, then my Ashley, Johnny, and Alex chilled in Ashley's room and we diesected a teddy bear, and me and Ashley did a puzzle it was fun. Then I went home ate dinner, and Miller came over. We talked about some things and we are ok but hes stil going to lay low for a little. Then I went back to Eric's and went in the hot tub and swam and now here I sitt, back at home. On the phone with Eric. I wont see him for like a week. Its gonna suck. But im goin to bed... night |
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| Parris Island |
[Jul. 18th, 2005|02:04 pm] |
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I got to see Partick, CJ, and Gwin yesterday. It was so great... Just seeing them again was so amazing. We took pictures and video taped the whole thing. It was teh first time I have ever been to Parris Island. It was pretty kool, we went on a sunday so the whole place was like completely dead. We saw a couple recruts leaving church but that was about all that was outside. Patrick, Cj, and Gwin couldnt come out to lunch with us but we stood outside the barricks and talked and they all called people. They were so happy. The smile on Patricks face was just priceless. Im so glad I got to see him and Im so proud of all of them. We went to the PX and i got 2 t-shirts and a neckless that says My Brother is a Marine. I love it. The ride home was so long though. 6 1/2 hours with MSTG, his wife, Johnny and Nyla (The grandbaby). What a long trip. It was SSSSOOOO worth it though. I was ssoo glad to see them, we were shacking with excitement the whole time. It was great, but it makes me miss him more... I hope its not the same for him. Only one more month left though, they have the crusible in three weeks. Im so proud of them... Ill see them again in a month. |
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| Blah!!! |
[Jul. 15th, 2005|06:03 pm] |
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So I tried to give Miller his bracelets back like twice and he wont take them. I wrote him a not with the bracelets attached to it and it was saying that I was sick of being so inlove with him and so forth and that I was going to try my hardest to get over him. He read the note lastnight in my room and the bracelets were haning on my bass when I went back in there. What does that mean??? Im so confused... Im convinced that he will never have them so I put the one he gave me back on. Im so fucking confused... But im off to the movies with a hole shitt load of people so im gonna roll like a fat chick on ex. LATE! |
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| Bored... |
[Jul. 12th, 2005|03:38 pm] |
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Im freaking bored... Ive been hanging out with Eric everyday, and Johnny. Miller still hangs around too. Its really hard, but I dont know... I just keep telling myself that this is the way its going to be. It sucks to have feelings for someone who dont have them back but whatever... HOLY SHITT IM PEELING LIKE A FUCKING BANANNA!!! I just noticed it too. Anyway, What else is going on?? Im going to PArris Island on Saturday, I cant freaking wait to see my brother and CJ and Gwin. Johnny called me fat yesterday, and it really hurt my feelings. Me Johnny and Eric went to the ghetto yesterday for Eric's brothers baseball game, we almost got killed. I was scared. Me and Eric have been going out for a week today, going strong... yet we have a very violent relationship. We both like to bite and now ive got brusies all over me. But I have alot of fun with him and thats all that matters. We know how to have fun. Yet right now we arent having to much fun, im bored and REALLY tired. Thats all ive got... Late |
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[Jul. 8th, 2005|05:32 pm] |
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Im sunburnt like woah. Ive been in the sun all week, it was fun though... I went wake boarding and tubing with Eric and then went to orlando for 2 days. we got 2 letters from Patrick and 1 from Gwin and one from CJ. Patrick said he can handle me going up there so im going to go up there prolly next week. Im going cosmic bowling tomorrow with Johnny and Eric. Miller is on his way over, and he stole my cousin.. so there was no one here when I got home, I was saddened. But we went to Planet Hollywood for lunch yesterday, it was SSSSOOOO awsome, I was inlove. Eric just called so im gonna go pick him up. Late! |
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| Done |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|09:59 am] |
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I got things figured out to the best of my ability. Kurtas is going back to Cali today, and Im going over to Eric's house and we are gonna chill. I think Greg comes back today... I hope. I REALLY need to write Patrick and CJ like soon, I havent written them in so long. I feel bad. But yeah Erik came over yesterday (from Newsome) he was here on the 3rd too. I really miss him being around. We talked lastnight and... he kept hinting that he wanted to kiss me. It was kinda weird... I never thought Erik would want that. But I like him hanging out with me again. Im glad he moved back. |
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| Would some one help me |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|04:02 pm] |
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Man I am so fucked over. I dont know what to do, me and Miller talked and he said we will never be anything more than friends and I was upset and crying and Kurtas talked to me well he wound up asking me out and I said yes... well I dont know if that was so bright cuz I really like Eric alot. Eric said he was going to ask me out but Kurtas beat him to it. Now I dont know what to do cuz im going to feel really bad if I break up with Kurtas cuz I told him I wouldnt hurt him. Well what do I do because if I dont tell him how I really feel then im just going to hurt him even more. I just dont know what to say to him, I like Kurtas but hes more like a brother to me. I dont want to lose that. Im scared to talk to him but if I dont it will just be worse.... I DONT KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO!!! |
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| Im so sore! |
[Jul. 3rd, 2005|10:13 am] |
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Yesterday was so much freaking fun! It was CrAzY!!! My back, arms and thighs are killing me, my muscles are so sore. I know what youre thinking... But no heres what happened. Ok so me Johnny and Compton went to Eric's house (which is huge, and hes got 2 vipers and 5 huge love sacs... the kid is RICH) and we went out on his jet ski's. It was freaking CrAzY!!! Me Johnny and Eric were on one and Robbie (Eric's brother) and Compton were on the other. We didnt even make it out of the river and we got pulled over. We get out into the bay and theres 6-8 foot waves.We were jumping them the whole way to the island. we get to the island and I was shaking from the crazy ride so we did back flips off the dock. That was fun then we got bored and went for another ride, jumping huge waves. We went over one and plowed into another and we almost flipped so Eric stopped and we were just chillin in the middle of the water and Eric was like you wont jump in and Johnny was like damn straight, you wont either and I was like I will and I just jumped off. Then we went around to where I caught my last shark (no lie) and Johnny was like "Oh shitt bubbles!" and I was like "Oh shitt we better get the hell off this jet ski!" and me and Eric jumped in and Johnny was like "yall are fucking crazy!" It was so fun. Then we went back to Eric's for a little then to my house then Johnnys mom called and asked if we all wanted to go to Ybor to see a movie so we did. We went and saw War of the Worlds (which wasnt as good as I thought itd be). Then after that we went to Stake n Shake and got milkshakes. Me and Eric were flirting like the whole time and we wound up holding hands on the way home. I went back to my house and Miller was here so he stayed for a little while till he had to leave at one. So me and Greg stayed up till like 3 and Eric was text messaging me saying that if he had my heart like Miller does hed treat me like the goddess I am and stuff like that. So I dont really know where things are going with that... I like him and stuff, but... Miller. And I know that cant hold me back or it shouldnt, but it really is. every time I would talk to Eric lastnight all I could think about was "Ok no more Miller" and I dont know if I can do that or not. I dont know... its hard. But we are going to PARTY HARD tonight and get krunk. Eric's not coming though cuz hes at a paintball tournament, but Miller and Kurtas are. |
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| Its going un-friends only... |
[Jul. 2nd, 2005|01:37 am] |
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Doing this so Ton-Dizzle can read this but the second one of you bitches abuse the privldge of public access this bitch is back on lock down.
Ok so today was really good, I hung out with Eric and Johnny and them. Eric is really kool, I like getting to know him but I dont really konw if he is my type. But it was lots of fun chillin with him today, besides the fact that he licked my foot.
Kurtas came over just a little while ago, he gave me a huge hug and showed me pictures from his work. Pretty kool, it shall be interesting what this weekend will hold.
On the other hand... I am soooo inlove with Miller. Seriously I have never been so inlove with anyone. Lastnight he came over and he was telling me how he was fighting with Bobbi cuz she called him up bitching about some shitt that REALLY pissed Miller, and ME off and after he was done telling me about that he was like "I just wish everyone would dissapear except for one person." And my cousin Greg was like "whos your one person mine is Jenna Javious" (porn star) and we all laughed and Greg was like "im guessing yours wasnt a porn star" and Miller was like "no I was talking about Trisha." Then today he came over again and we went into my room and fell asleep holding each other. He slept, I didnt... I just layed there with him holding me thinking of if the world were to end just then I would actually die happy. I layed there for at least 3 hours. Its amazing how time flies when im in his arms. It was tonight that I realized just how much I am so inlove with him. The reason I feel this is true is because I write poetry alot, about every guy I have been with I have written a poem about either them or how they make me feel. I was trying to think of stuff to write today and I couldnt think of a damn think to write because he makes me feel so many wounderful things at once that I dont even know how to put that into words. All I can say about it is that I want to be with him forever... I love him... |
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[May. 22nd, 2005|02:37 pm] |
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HAHA! I knew she was going to fuck up! |
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| Prom pictures |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|09:55 pm] |
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The black man is my date. He was lookin hot! He was the best date EVER! And the first guy I ever slow danced with. LoL I had sooooo much fun. Cheers to the people that made my night the best night of my life!
I love yall. |
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| Wake me up when September ends... |
[Jan. 20th, 2005|05:11 pm] |
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Its weird how one thing can make you so depressed, even when everything in your life is just perfect...
What is it with me? I dont know what is going through my head right now... Gosh! Im angry at my self and im depressed... youd fuckin think im PMSin... odd thing is im not.
...I want this summer to come.
Why do I want to cry everytime I look at that picture????
I hate myself...
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wakeme up when September ends.... untill then just let me sleep |
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| This room is bored of rehersal Im sick of the boundries I MISS YOU SO MUCH! |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|11:43 pm] |
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Greg left :'(, I cried. I think he might have too. I fucking miss him already. We tried to get him to stay over tonight I offered to drive him to his hotel at whatever time they wanted even if it was at 5 AM I said Id drive over there but that was still a no. I was so upset, I really didnt want him to leave but he said he is definatly coming back in 6 months. Im just scared it will be another 10 years. Ashley is talking about going to the hotel in the morning to see him again before he leaves but i dont want to cry again... even tho im pretty close to doing it again now. I want to go see him in Cali so I can go sight seeing and stalk Mark Hoppus. We shall see if that happens. He signed my wall and shoe... And Tonya's shoe, and Ashley`s shoe. He sure has left his mark on us. We had alot of fun, I just wish he could have stayed longer. I love him... and I fucking miss him already. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2004|09:49 pm] |
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So yeah Greg left today :'( I miss him already he was so much fun! Yesterday he ran around the house naked and jumped over the fire and singed his ball hairs. It was so funny right after that he jumped in the pool he said his balls was in his throght it was so cold. His parents wouldnt let him stay here another night cuz they didnt trust my parents parenting skills.Hes coming back on thursday tho. But It kinda pissed me off I know it pissed him off. But yeah hes a fun kid, pretty cute too. And no im not being redneck or anything were not in any way blood related. Anyway, I got to talk to James today and not online I actually called him. His voice sounds different but I can tell by the way he talks it was him... he so.... James. Hes coming down this summer and hopefully moving in with me, though my dad doesnt approve of it but I dont care. He said hes going out with this ugly chick that he doesnt even like cuz hes desprate. And he said that he misses me and all that good stuff. I cant wait till he comes back down me and Garrett are going to sex him up! First it was just Garrett that was going to do that and I was like what about me? and he was like your after Garrett and I was like Im not going to be sloppy seconds and he was like your right Garrett can go second.It was funny, I miss that kid. Im glad I got to talk to him. But yeah anyway... I think im going to go now. With Greg being over I have been going to bed at like around 3-5 every night so at least tonight I can get a good night sleep. |
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